Альбом This Providence

they hold it all together as i stand back in envy
is there a hurting heart behind that smile
a world of hurting hearts
a few broken generations
"it's not safe, stay away from follow me's are everywhere
in a world that lacks commitment you very quickly learn
to justify your actions so follow the truth"
but it seems like they've got it all and all i have is you
they've got it all i have is you
wait , how can i entertain these thoughts of life without you?
i'm losing my mind and with that the love of my life
i step out my door to a beautiful day and a world full of hate
but i still hold on to a hope for you and me
yeah i still i hold on to this foolish hope
take it or leave it it's only a matter of life or death
take it or leave it it's only a matter of life or death

If you'd just trust in me
You know I trust you
We'll do all the things that you've dreamed to do
If you'd just let go
If you'd let your heart go

Take me past the color of your eyes
Take me from the past of all my mistakes to where the future lies
I know that my moods were changing like the weather
do you ever dream of us together?
Now I just want to show you who I am

Holding on to dreams we collide
We had our futures
Our reasons
Our fingers on the trigger
When we base our joy on the things that we see
We lose the trust in it all and the faith we believe

If you'd just trust in me
You know I trust you
We'll do all the things that you've dreamed to do
If you'd just let go
If you'd let your heart go
Remember when I used to be your everything?
Now I'm nothing at all
Trust me I've tried to let you go
But I can't move on
I cant move on

What I do now will affect what comes next
And this life that I lead will be everything you need
I pray to be all that you dream
and I'll die trying to be

Everyday I wake up and hear you whisper my name,
Maybe breathe a little prayer but it just ain't the same,
Ignoring every word you say,
Every word when you tell me.

Woah be still,
Just stay still,
Woah be still,
But oh God.

Everybody's got something for me to do,
And my head's filled with thoughts of everything but you,
'Cause I never listen to anyything you say,
And I fall in submission to everything but you everyday.

I go to your house and fall on my knees,
The very next morning and cry out please,
Would you take this life I call my own?
Would you let your house become my home?

Your words hit harder than expected,
I couldn't sleep because my dreams were interrupted,
By the bittersweet fragrance of our childhood dreams,
Filling my heart but its a world torn apart.

We thought we had what no one,
Could ever have invincibility,
But a distance between you and I killed us gradually,
A spoonful of your sarcasm helps the pain go down,
But if you wanna mend my heart for a while,
It'll take a phone call from your side of town.

Now we're left with broken hearts and a handful of memories,
And who I am now reflects you somehow,
'Cause you're so apart of me,
It's not like were over is it?
It's not like we'll never be together,
I hate it, the way that you say "never."

The snow falls here,
You can see the stars,
Where you are searching for the inspiration,
That we once found in every moment we shared,
All our deepest dreams,
On a train of thought,
That took us to the place of common ground,
But the stage was only set for a disappointment.

Now we're left with broken hearts and a handful of memories,
And who I am now reflects you somehow,
'Cause you're so apart of me,
It's not like were over is it?
It's not like we'll never be together,
I hate it, the way that you say "never."

And now were left here,
Two seperate paths,
You'll take yours and I'll take mine,
We're left with broken hearts,
Growing older and growing apart.

With a lack of self esteem
I walked into my teens
And six years later
I'm still frustrated
I'm still not who I want to be
And now it all comes down to
Am I treating her right?

If I could just be
All that I can be for her
That's when I'd be the man I long to be
I hate this cycle
It's a neverending
Story of infinite last chances I keep telling myself

And now it all comes down to
Am I treating you right?

Just grow up
But it's so easy to say
And so much harder to do
I hear it each and every day
Just grow up
It's the only thing left to do

It's time to kill this
There's no two ways about it
Ends today right here right now
But it's time I learn that
It's not a matter
Of saying the right words
Or singing the right songs

It's so old but it's not easy
To say goodbye to all this heartache
To just say no, just run away, endure pain
And suffocate every desire that hurts you

My words and actions don't align
My heart is the victim of my mind

While forever seems to take its time,
We're still standing here in line waiting for the sun to rise,
As she looks on she's so confused,
Her heart is lonely, broken, and bruised,
A closed circle with no more room for one more,
Screams "to hell with you."

What's wrong with this picture?
What's wrong with this picture?
Did you ever stop to think,
A thief in the night has come to steal your loved ones?
Did you ever take the time,
To see the world around us is falling apart?

Eyes closed,
We've all had our eyes closed,
Our hands behind our back we run and hide,
From everything that moves,
From everything that might put out this little light of mine.

What's wrong with this picture?
What's wrong with this picture?
Did you ever stop to think,
A thief in the night has come to steal your loved ones?
Did you ever take the time,
To see the world around us is falling apart?

Where did our hero go and who did he dine with?
We say the world's gonna end in the end anyway,
And anyway, I'm ok so it doesnt concern me.

And did you ever stop to think,
A thief in the night has come to steal your loved ones?
And did you ever take the time,
To see the world around us is falling apart?

I'm finding it hard just to breathe,
I'm finding it hard just to breathe without your breathe of life,
I'm finding it hard just to breathe in you,
I can't breath, can't you see that I'm suffocating.

Are you here with me now?
Well everyone keeps telling me how you're the air I breathe,
And everything I need is in you.

I'm one step away from,
Another bad decision and,
I've already made up my mind,
Cause I've strayed so far away from,
The air that I breathe and I'm suffocating.

Where am I? I can't see a thing,
I'm getting swept off my feet,
And where are you I can here your words resounding,
Not by the wind but by the waves that drown me.

Don't let go, don't you let go.

Oh why didn't it occur to me,
That your love goes deeper,
Than my moods or reservations,
And all my stupid lines like,
"I'm just not in the mood for this"?
I once was blind but now I see,
You're breathing your life into me.

So I'll swallow all my pride,
Take a deep breath and fall at your feet,
So this is breathing,
Breathe in you.

"sorry i'm just tired,"you said
i made a scene and you replied
"sorry that i'm tired, but can i just see you smile?"
what was going through my head as we laid on the phone in our beds?
you always felt like you were wrong

sorry you're tired
'cause i've been keeping you up half the night and bathing in your tears
'cause i've been oh so scared to lose you and holding on too tight
while i've been spoon-fed my fears

if only i could love the way you do
you forgive me in a heartbeat of this heart that beats for you
well tomorrow's a new day and i can't wait to prove myself to you
i'll prove myself to you
i'll prove myself to you
i'll prove myself to you
i'll prove myself to you
i'll prove myself to you
i'll prove myself to you

I lay in my bed,
Think of all that was said and done,
It's 2 in the morning,
My mood swings are boring you now.

You just drive away,
Now we don't think I mean it,
I say sorry 'cause I've already said it too many times,
Sorry, my bad.

But I never wanted us to be like this,
I never dreamed of me treating you like this,
Trying to find a way out of this mess,
That I guess I put us in on my own.

Hung up on me tonight,
For my first time in a fight,
Whatever happens,
Do you hang up now, hang up.

But I never wanted us to be like this,
I never dreamed of anything but give you a kiss,
Trying to find a way out of this mess,
That I guess we got us in ourselves.

Please hold onto me,
I'm begging you and im on my knees again,
I know you have every right to leave me,
But sweety will you hang onto me.

Let me say just this to you,
I know we can pull through,
We're always given a way out of these temptations.

I never wanted us to be like this,
I never dreamed of me treating you like this,
Trying to find a way out of this mess,
That I guess we got us in ourselves.

I never wanted us to be like this,
I never dreamed of me treating you like this,
Trying to find a way out of this mess,
that I guess we got us ourselves.

Let me say just this to you,
I know we can pull through,
We're always given a way out of these temptations.

i'll run and hide under my bed
you're calling my name from outside my door but i'm not ready yet
for a revolution to start in me

'cause i'm just scared of losing control
i'm terrified of who i'll become with you
i'm just scared
the world hates you and it's gonna hate me too

a cry for help rings in your ear
i'm calling your name from inside this hole that i've dug myself into
it's so wrong
my self-centered prayers as if you don't care for anyone but me
give me a day
that's all it takes for me to turn my back on you

'cause i'm just scared of losing control
i'm terrified of who i'll become with you
i'm just scared
the world hates you and it's gonna hate me too

the whole world hates us
the whole world hates our song
but still we sing
but still we sing along

so here i am
a wary heart and trembling hands
waiting for the words to leave your lips
so here i am
a wary heart and trembling hands
waiting for the words to leave your lips

(this could be the hardest step that i'll take)

here i am
a wary heart and trembling hands
waiting for the words to leave your lips
(this could be the hardest step that i'll take)

the whole world hates us
the whole world hates our song
but still we sing
but still we sing along
('cause i'm just scared of losing control
i'm terrified of who i'll become with you
i'm just scared
the world hates you and it's gonna hate me too)

Never forget you,
Never forget you,
Never forget you,
I'll never forget you.
Stolen, a life was stolen,
Stolen, this life was stolen,
but you can't take what is already done
and you can't take what it still has to do
cause some for those lost is still some.
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