Альбом Relient K

And I've collected all these thoughts
And I'm dying just to lose them
And if your words are true or not
I'll die trying to prove them
But I'll just have to accept
That my mind is so inept
And the only thing that's left
For me to do is to trust you

Convince me
Because I really need your help
Oh convince me
Because I can't see this for myself

I'll put the emphasis on the evidence
Begging for the proof
Sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth

This is so unnerving
I know you've never lied to me before
But the things you're telling me
I can't yet believe
Yet can't ignore
But I'll just have to accept
That my mind is so inept
And the only thing that's left
For me is to trust you

Put the emphasis on the evidence
Begging for the proof
Sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth

It's a world full of cynics
Who say to stay alive in it
You gotta stick with what you know
But the soul is always aching
For the heart to start taking
A chance by letting go

So let go
Let go
Sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth
Attempt to place our lives into your hands
Confide in what you'll do
Cause sometimes when you're trying to sleep
And all your doubts and your faith don't agree its cause
Sometimes the hardest thing to believe is the truth

Yeah, I'm not angry and no I'm not upset
Its taken me a while, but this is what I learned:
Emotional attatchment is really not a threat
When I am simply not concerned

The things that I take on I soon shrug off
Cause I know no one will ever be content
With the way things are or with what they've got
So I'll just give up and now I'm just indifferent

You all laugh at me
Like i'm not happy
With anything, anytime, anywhere
And the half of me's all about apathy
And the other half
Just doesn't care

I must admit, all the words you spoke, I hated
Cause I don't see just how I can be motivated
Enough to break a sweat over a dying race
It seems our fate is something we've already embraced

Yeah, I'm not angry and no I'm not upset
Its taken me a while, but this is what I learned:
Emotional attatchment is really not a threat
When I am simply not concerned

You all laugh at me
Like i'm not happy
With anything, anytime, anywhere
And the half of me's all about apathy
And the other half
Just doesn't care

Yeah
Being apathetic's a pathetic way to be
But I don't care
What matters to you does not matter to me
Cause I don't care

So take a wild guess its
Like I just couldn't care less if
All the things you find impressive
Just blew up and made those messes
That you'll frantically repair
Like its a life or death affair
And all the while you're unaware
For this, you really shouldn't care

But its so hard to see
The reality
ithat the end will be
The end of things
And our hearts are all we'll get to bring
So let's go ahead and make them worth something

You all laugh at me
Like i'm not happy
With anything, anytime, anywhere
And the half of me's all about apathy
And the other half
Just doesn't care

You all laugh at me
Like i'm not happy
With anything, anytime, anywhere
And the half of me's all about apathy
And the other half
Just doesn't care

I'm well aware that everything is a far cry from alright
I'm well aware that all of us can at times be too uptight
And possibly the remedy is a dose of apathy
You point your finger at you, and I'll point mine right back at me

I’ve given up on giving up slowly
I’m blending in so you won’t even know me
Apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention
It’s my one last shot at redemption
Cause I know to live you must give your life away

And I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there’s no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I’m going because…

I gotta get out of here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get out of here
And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape

I’ve given up on doing this alone now
Guess I failed and I’m ready to shown now
You told me the way and now I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
And that might be the death of me
And even though there’s no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I’m going because…

I gotta get out of here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake (yeah)
I gotta get out of here
And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self-detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for you to do what you can with me
But I can’t ask you to give what you already gave.

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt
and insecurity
And I’ve been locked inside that house
All the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out
That might be the death of me
And even though there’s no way of knowing
Where to go
I promise I’m going because…

I gotta get out of here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get out of here
And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape

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I fought you for so long
I should have let you in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin (oh)
But so were you
So were you

I think you know what I'm getting at
I find it so upsetting that
The memories that you select
You keep the bad but the good you just forget

And even though I'm angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
When you peel out and drive away
I can't believe this happened
And all this time I never thought
That all we had would be all for not

No, I don't hate you
Don't want to fight you
Know I'll always love you
But right now I just don't like you
Know I don't hate you
Don't want to fight you
Know I'll always love you
But right now I just don't like you
Cause you took this too far, too far

Make your decision and don't you dare think twice
Go with your instincts along with some bad advice
This didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
You blame me but some of this is still your fault

I tried to move you
But you just wouldn't budge
I tried to hold your hand
But you'd rather hold your grudge
I think you know what I'm getting at
You said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that

No, I don't hate you
Don't want to fight you
Know I'll always love you
But right now I just don't like you
Know I don't hate you
Don't want to fight you
Know I'll always love you
But right now I just don't like you

And wisdom always chooses
The black eyes and these bruises
Over the heartache that they say
Never completely goes away
(I just can't believe this happened
And one day we'll see this come around)
And wisdom always chooses
The black eyes and these bruises
Over the heartache that they say
Never completely goes away

No, I don't hate you
Don't want to fight you
Know I'll always love you
But right now I just don't like you
Know I don't hate you
Don't want to fight you
Know I'll always love you
But right now I just don't like you
Cause you took this too far

What happened to us
I heard that its me we should blame
What happened to us
Why didn't you stop me from turning out this way
And know that I don't hate you
And know that I don't want to fight you
And know that I'll always love you
But right now I just don't...

i was thinking, overthinking
cause theres just too many scenerios
to analyze, look in my eyes
cause you're my dream please come true.
i was thinking, overthinking
about exactly how i'm not exactly him
i'll break my heart in two more times than you could ever do
cause you're my dream please come true.

cause i think way too much on a one track mind
and you're so out of touch cause i'm so far behind
i can't deny this anymore, the facts ignored all done before
and if theres one in this world, you let me know you're not that girl.

i was sinking, lower sinking
cause i lost the things i held on to
they let me think a thought a thought a thought that i would know was not
of seeing my dreams come true
i was thinking, overthinking
about how far i had let this go
one more guy/girl cliche i know now you're just in the way
of me and my dream come true.

cause i think way too much on a one track mind
and you're so out of touch cause i'm so far behind
i'm trying to make sense out of all of this
while you're fading scent just slips through my grip
i can't deny this anymore, the facts ignored all done before
and if theres one in this world, you'll let me know you're not that girl.

don't touch the positive with the negative end
don't touch the positive with the negative end
cause after all the sparks you're left alone in the dark
cause after all the sparks you're left alone in the dark
and while i'm able, i think i'll label
experience with you as a mistake
and while i'm at it, i'll say i've had it
experience with you is a mistake

cause i think way too much on a one track mind
and you're so out of touch cause i'm so far behind
i'm trying to make sense out of all of this
while you're fading scent just slips through my grip

i was thinking, over thinking
cause theres just too many scenerios
to think about to figure out
if you're my dream please come true

It's always nice to look out the window
And see those very first few flakes of snow
And later on we can go outside
And create the impression of an angel that just fell from the sky

When February rolls around I'll roll my eyes
Turn a cold shoulder to these even colder skies
And by the fire my heart it heaves a sigh
For the green grass waiting on the other side

It's always winter but never Christmas
It seems this curse just can't be lifted
Yet in the midst of all this ice and snow
Our hearts stay warm cause they are filled with hope

It'd be so nice to look out the window
And see the leaves on the trees begin to show
The birds would congregate and sing
A song of birth a song of newer things

The wind would calm and the sun would shine
I'd go outside and I'd squint my eyes
But for now I will simply just withdraw
Sit here and wish for this world to thaw

And everything it changed overnight
This dying world you brought it back to life
And deep inside I felt things
Shifting everything was melting
Away oh away
And you gave us the most beautiful of days

Cause when it's always winter but never Christmas
Sometimes it feels like you're not with us
But deep inside our hearts we know
That you are here and we will not lose hope

I guess it's safe to say you're never coming back
And I understand why you wouldn't want to
I guess it's up to me to find a way to get to you

And I can't see you
Getting used to
Living in the midst of your perfection
And I'm so lost
How can you trust
Somewhere the sun is always shining

And there's just one last thing that I have to say
As we reflect on the mess of all this that I've made
It was cowardice that made me push you away
I was so afraid cause you were so much better than me