Альбом Pearl Jam

got all night
plenty of time
take these chains
from my eyes
so alive
getting pride
take her down
before you die
right beside
we've got all night
is he here?
top of the stairs
no place for
the president
build some fears
slip outside
fuck, be content
to just get by
why? be satisfied
we've got all night
?
right besides
we've got... all night
we've got all night

All the photographs are peeling
and colors turn to gray, he stayed
in his room with memories for days, he faced
an undertow of future's laid to waste, embraced
by the loss of one he could not replace

and there's no reason that she'd passed
and there is no god with a plan, it's sad
and his loneliness is proof, it's sad
he could only love you, it's sad

the door swings through a passing fable
a fate we may delay, we say
holding on, live within our embrace
he lit a match, he laid in bed
hoping their dreams will bring her back, it's sad
and his loneliness is cruel, it's sad
he could only love you, it's sad

holding his last breath, believing
he'll make his way
if she's not forgotten
he's haunted
he's searching for escape

if just one wish could bring her back, it's sent
and his loneliness is proof, it's sad

Down. Fall by the wayside no getting out.
Down. Cry me a river dried up and dammed.
The names can be changed but the place is still the same.
I am loaded. Told that all's for naught. Holds me down.

Rise. Life is in motion. I'm stuck in line.
Rise. You can't be neutral on a moving train.
One day the symptoms fade. Think I'll throw these pills away.
And if hope could grow from dirt like me. It can be done.

Won't let the light escape from me.
Won't let the darkness swallow me.

Take a ladder up to my room.
Take a ladder up to the moon.
I am a light reflected off of the moon to you.
So faraway, running out of room.
Running out of time,
Meet me on the moon... on the moon.
We'll have it all to ourselves.
We'll keep it, and no one could tell.
All our searching...
Sharing a kiss on the moon. [2x]
The german sky... don't ask me why.
It's ten o'clock and my only thought is of you and the moon. [2x]
And the moon. [2x]
It's ten...

You fool
Dude what do you think you're doing
So you're lost
My problem last night(?)
Conductor says
Off of my train
Be understood(?)
Guess those relationships ain't my thing
Even if I could
You ain't the kinda person I would help anyway
I'm about to explode
Cause I can't carry your load
Hitchiker

You're cool
You're coke and your calculations
We're friends
Only because of my situation
I'm about to unload
Cause I can't carry your load
Hitchhiker

So be gone
Too soon is too late
I don't want no delay
So be gone
Get you're food off someone else's plate
Go tell all of your friends
I'm an idiot(?)and your great
Hitchhiker

Don't give me no lip
Don't give me no lip
Don't give me no
2x

Don't give me no lip, i've had my fill of it
Don't give me no lip, i've lost my taste for it
Don't give me no lip, you've got to face this shit
Don't give me no lip, Don't give me no lip

Don't give me no lip
Don't give me no lip
Don't give me no
3x

Don't give me no lip, I'm just not having it
Don't give me no lip, suck on your cigarette
Don't give me no lip, I'm wiping off the spit
Don't give me no lip, Don't give me no lip

It's just a problem
One I'll be solving
It's just a problem

Don't give me no lip
Don't give me no lip
Don't give me no

(Abbruzzese, Ament, Gossard, McCready, Vedder)

Ooh, yeah. Ooh, yeah.

Mmm, Wide awake and he shakes in a panic. Never woke up alone ever before.
Had his woman long as he can remember. Tries to forget but he can't, he can't.
Out of bed and he dreams in the shower. She's standing naked and apologizing.
Reaches for her till his mind becomes blood hot. Woken up to be burned burned again.

Go it alone. You got it so it goes.
Gonna breathe and I said, "I can't take it any other way."

On the streets he's walking wounded. Doesn't smile for the child at play.
Thoughts of suicide and alleviation. Anything to get his heart off of the coals.
Does he fly away or just talk about it? Like a seagull born to cry in the wind.
Own experiences lead to a younger. All-alone you will meet the one who lies in wait.

Go it alone. You got it so it goes.
Try to breathe while you can. You can't take it any other way. Yeah, yeah.

I can help myself don't talk to me.
I can help myself don't talk to me.
I can help myself. Myself.
I can help myself don't talk to me.
I can help myself don't talk to me.
I can help myself don't talk to me.
I can help myself. Myself.

I can help myself don't talk to me. I can help myself.

Wide awake and he shakes in a panic. Never woke up alone ever before.
Had his woman long as he can remember. Tries to forget but he can't... he can't... he can't... he can't...

I can help myself don't talk to me.

I'm questioning my education
Is my education all i am now?
While you're deciding i've been finding
Looking around in the here and now

If I'd been taught from the beginning
Would my fears now be winning?

I'm questioning my own equation
Is my own equation relevant somehow
The flags will wave and the news is breaking
See the man who came, forgot his own tie

If I'd been taught from the beginning
Would my fears now be winning?
A wild world, figured out the answers
I'll be in my own, dancing out, ou-out yeaaah

I'm questioning my education
Rewinding, what does it show?
Could be, the truth, it becomes you

U
(Vedder)

Thought it was easy to fall in love but you, you, you.
You're different this much I know yeah, you, you, you.
It might be your guile. It could be your mind.
It might be the way you take your time.
Oh, you, you, you.

You, it's you. It's you, you, you.
Oh, you. It's you. It's you, you, you.

I never know how much to say with you, you, you.
I like to go deep but is it safe with you, you, you.
It might be your needs. It could be your eyes.
It might be the way you sympathize.
Oh, you, you, you.

You. It's you. It's you, you, you.
Oh, you. It's you. It's you you you

You break laws and pay no fines. You get yours and then get mine.

I don't think it's easy to stay in love.
But you, you, you, you.
But you, yes you. It's you, you, you.
You. it's you. it's you, you, you.
Ah you
It's you. (x3)
Ah you, you, you, yes you.
With you, you, you, you ah.
???????

(Vedder)

Exponentially serving. Perpetually unnerving. Vehicle swerving.
The adjectives they are all a-blurring.
Freud walking the sidelines clipboard scoring the brain.
Black magic painted traits. Makes me sain.

Hormones firing like a fifty foot Roman, yeah.
Please don't make me explain. Don't matter anyway.

Phontom pain in my brain. It's all that's left of my leg.

Black and Red and Yellow and Black and Red and Yellow.

Heard you repeat a-what ya heard. Me knowing the truth I can not concure. Na-na.

Hormones firing like a fifty foot Roman, yeah.
Please don't make me explain. Doesn't matter anyway.
Hormones firing like a fifty foot Roman, yeah.
Please don't make me explain.

Yo bro. Tell us what's happenin'. Um, I'm on the west, west side of, on the west coast.
Give me a jingle, uh, when you get in from where the fuck you're at.

Yeah, hormones firing like a fifty foot Roman, yeah.
Please don't make me explain. Doesn't fucking matter anyway.
Hormones firing like a fifty foot Roman, yeah. Please don't make me explain.

Hey fellas have you heard the news? Oh yeah.
The women in this town are being missused. Oh yeah.
Yeah I seen it all in my dreams last night. Oh yeah.
Girls leaving this town cuse they don't treat em right-a. Oh yeah.

I'll take a train. (take a train)
Fly by plane. (fly by plane)
There getting tired. (getting tired)
Getting sick and tired. (sick and tired)

Oh you fellas better change your ways. Oh yeah.
Them leaving this town in a matter of days. Oh yeah.
Girl is good you better treat em true. Oh yeah.
Seen fellas runnin arround with someone new. Oh yeah.

I'm gettin tired. (gettin tired)
Sick and tired. (sick and tired)
There leaving here. (leavin' here)
Oh leaving here. (leavin' here)
Oh leaving here yeah yeah yeah leaving here.
Been a while.

Oh yea (x4)

The love of a woman is a wonderful thing. Oh yeah.
The way that we treat em is a cryin shame. Oh yeah.
I'll tell you fellas yea it won't be long. Oh yeah.
Before these women they all have gone. Oh yeah.

I'm gettin tired. (gettin tired)
Sick and tired. (sick and tired)
I'll take a train. (take a train)
Fly by plane. (fly by plane)
There leaving here yeah yeah yeah. Leaving here.
Leaving leaving. Oh leaving here now.
Baby baby baby. Please don't leave here.

1, 2, 1, 2
1, 2, 1 2 3 4

Every beach has a clown who thinks he knows it all.
Hang-ten outta Santa Fe when surf comes out tomorrow lets go!
And he's always practicing his cowabunga call.
Cowabunga!
But the menace scrambles when the big waves start to roll.
Wsssshhhh...
'Cuse there's nothing worse then a gremmie out of control.

Gremmie out of control. (x2)
There's nothing worse then a gremmie out of control.

The kids all know that a gremmie's talk is cheep.
Ride the Hula-Han over the pipeline bonsai to the saddle bowl.
Tho they just try to ignore this ugly creep.
Cowabunga!
His board is always full of dings 'cause he's always doing stupid things.

And there's nothing worse then a gremmie out of control.
Gremmie out of control. (x2)
There's nothing worse then a gremmie out of control.

Gremmie out of control. (x2)

The sun was in clouds. The sun looked out. Exposed a trail of mist and spouts.
Ships followed the ancient lead. Deceiving friends under the sea.
Wow, imagine that? They won't fight back. I got a theory on that.
A whale's heart is as big as a car. A whaler's thought must be smudged by the
dark.

They won't fight back. I'm sure they know how. Means they love or are too proud.
They won't fight back. I'm sure they know how. Means they love or too proud.
They swim. It's really free. It's a beautiful thing to see. They sing.

Hunters of land. Hunters of sea. Exploit anything for money.
I refer to anybody that takes advantage of what that is free.
They won't fight back.
It's only a thought that makes it seem right. What you don't see is because of
your sight.

Take what you want. Kill what you can. That's just one way of the mind of man.
Take their lives. Sell their parts but there is not taking of their hearts.

If I was lost at sea. That harpoon boat in front of me. It's the whale I'd like
to be.

They won't fight back. (x5)
They don't know how.

Last stop on the westcoast line.
South of the northern border.
One small corner home tonight.
Everybody they know me there.
Don't get any second glances.
Chances are that they don't care.
The world has come undone.
Like to change it everyday.
Change don't come at once.
There's a wave, building before it breaks.
Can't wait for election day.
Witness the occupation.
Corporations rule the day.
Well you know the pendulum throws.
Farther out to the one side swinging.
Has to sweep back the other way.
The world has come undone.
Another day and who can wait.
Change don't come at once.
It's a wave, building before it breaks.
All this hope and nowhere to go.
This is how I used to feel but no more.
The world has come undone.
Like a game if you can play.
Change don't come from one.

Nothin' left for me...
I can't live down here no more.
I can't fall from a tree,
I got wings, it ain't my fault.
Understand what's right...
It's so hard to be alone.
It's never tight,
It's been so loose for so long.

Hold on...Hold on...

Understand my fear,
I never been this high before.
I can't fall from cheer alone.
It only takes a breath to believe...

I can't face one more day,
I have tried so many ways.
My life work, all I failed.
I can't waste away on zeal...

Hold on...
A voice tells me hold on...
Somewhere I feel...hold on...

(Vedder, McCready, Ament)

Unsealed on a porch a letter sat.
Then you said, "I wanna leave it again."
Once I saw her on a beach of weathered sand. And on the sand I wanna leave it again. Yeah.
On a weekend I wanna wish it all away, yeah.
And they called and I said that "I want what I said" and then I call out again.
And the reason oughta' leave her calm, I know.
I said "I know what I wear not the boxer or the bag."

Ah yeah, can you see them out on the porch? Yeah, but they don't wave.
But I see them round the front way. Yeah.
And I know, and I know. I don't want to stay.
Make me cry...

I see... Ooh I don't know why there's something else.
I wanna drum it all away...
Oh, I said, "I don't, I don't know whether I was the boxer or the bag."

Ah yeah, can you see them out on the porch? Yeah, but they don't wave.
But I see them round the front way. Yeah.
And I know, and I know. I don't wanna stay at all.
I don't wanna stay. Yeah.
I don't wanna stay. (x2)
I don't... Don't wanna, oh... Yeah. Ooh... Ohh...

How good is he?
how warm are his eyes
you'll see it's not a reprise
there he arrived
too late and too tethered away
to put on his suit and his tie

how good is he?
how warm is his heart
or ego telling him which place to park
did he relate, the message is clearly hardly
grounds for dismissal outright
grounds for dismissal outright

i wake up and wait up
when anger's in fashion
i wake up and wait up
it echoes through the mansions
i wake up and wait up
when april's in may, oh uh oh
i wake up and wait up
the answers are fatal
the answers are fatal

when i wait up and wake up
the answers are fatal

if he's truly out of sight
is he truly out of mind?

it's not the same without you up here
can't find my wheels
your absence is what breeds this fear
warm breath and all it steals
you can't know how it feels to be in here
all the dark horse fields, befriendin' me
playin' ain't the same without you here
we've come to hate the golden rule
cannot seem to make the dots connect
the morning light don't show you near
you can't know what it's like to bleed from here
the blackened world goes white, it goes nowhere
oooh hoo..
death ain't the same without you, dear
i make the others run and hide
new york streets seem to make it worse
all this noise inside the quiet
i can't hold on, the weight you bear
my body's broken fast, please lift me up
you can't know what it's like to be inside
your fading melodies can't beat my need
i'm not the same without you here
how can i quit to be there
sit and stare
stare..

Paint a picture forty shades of gray.
Light your pillow. Lay back. Watch the flames.
I'll tell a story but no one would listen that long.

It's hard to imagine. It's hard to imagine.
Ohh [x4]

Fuck tradition. No one's safe from harm.
Wait a living. Cup and curse these arms.
After having seen all that they saw.

It's hard to imagine. It's hard to imagine.
Ohh [x4]

Things were different then. All is different now.
I tried to explain. Somehow.
Things were different then. All is different now.
I tried to explain. Somehow.
Ohh [x4]

Things were different then. All is different now.
I tried to explain. I hope this works. Somehow.
Things were different then. All is different now.
I tried to explain. Oh, somehow.
Ohh [x4]

(Vedder, Gossard)

Don't even think about reaching me. I won't be home.
Don't even think about stopping by. Don't think of me at all.

I did a what I had to do. If there was a reason, it was you.

Aaah, don't even think about getting inside. Voices in my head. Ooh, voices.
I got scratches all over my arms. One for each day since I fell apart.

I did, oh, what I had to do. If there was a reason it was you.

Footsteps in the hall... It was you, you.
Oh, pictures on my chest... It was you. It was you...

I did a what I had to do. Oh, and if there was a reason... Oh, there wasn't no reason. no.
And if there's something you'd like to do. Oh, just let me continue to blame you.

A footsteps in the hall... It was you, you.
Oh, pictures on my chest... It was you, you. Oh

(Vedder, Gossard, Ament, McCready, Krusen)

Oh please let it rain today. This city's so filthy. Like my mind in ways.
Oh it was the time. Like a clean new taste.
Smiling eyes before me and tears from my face.

Wash my love. Wash my love. Wash my love, yeah.

Sin for sale. Buying just a need. Just who planted all the devils seeds?
And what's the truth? And the truth that lies at home.
It's on the inside and I can't get it off. Yeah.

Wash my love. Wash my love. Wash my love, yeah.

What's clean is pure. But hey, I'm white on the outside. Though I stray.
What she don't know today might kill us both tomorrow. Bring it back someday.
Bring it back, bring it back. Back to, to the clean form. To the pure form.

Wash my love. (x8)
Ooh...

(Vedder)

Sailing on my every step. Inching off of the earth.
Is magnified by the things I've done.
The thing that I've become.

Every lift of my hand. Coffee cup up, and back.
Is magnified by the things I've done. The things I've seen. the things I've caused.

I'm a dead man walking.

The hammer that I once brung down now hovers over me.
Cast a shadow across, onto me.

The hallways are all mocking me.
What I've become they're all mocking me.

I'm a dead man walking. A dead man walking. A dead man walking.
I'm a dead man walking. Dead man walking. Dead man walking.

It's five below in evidence.
The winded eves and sideways snow.
His eminence has yet to show.

Follow the ageless tide.
Follow the angled light.
Follow the strangest tribe.
I... I... I...

It's 6:00 AM. You're waiting for...
You've had your feast. You're wanting more.

Follow the wayward mile.
Follow the distant high.
Follow the strangest tribe.
I... I... I...

Follow the ancient stripe.
Follow the angels try.
Follow the strangest tribe.

Drifting, drifting, drifting away.
I got myself a mansion, then I gave it away.
It's not the world that's heavy, just the things that you save.
And I'm drifting, drifting away.

Drifting, drifting, drifting along.
I rid myself of worries, and the worries were gone.
I only run when I want to and I sleep like a dog.
I'm just drifting, drifting along.

The suitcoats say, "There is money to be made."
They get so damn excited, but I guess it's their way.
My road it may be lonely just because it's not paved.
It's good for drifting, drifting away.

The suitcoats say, "There is money to be made."
They get so damn excited, nothing gets in their way
My road it may be lonely just because it's not paved.
It's good for drifting, drifting away.

Drifting, drifting, drifting, uh huh.
I feel like going back there, but never for long.
I sometimes wonder if they know that I'm gone.
I'm just drifting, drifting along.
Drifting, drifting along. Drifting, drifting along.

Cold wind blows on the soles of my feet
Heaven knows nothing of me
I'm lost, nowhere to go
Oh, when I was a kid...oh, how magic it seemed
Oh, please let me sleep, it's Christmas time

Flowered winds was where I lived
Thought you burned, not froze for your sins
Oh, I'm so tired, and cold
Oh, when I was a kid...oh, how magic it seemed
Oh, please let me sleep, it's Christmas time
Oh...oh, when I was a kid...oh, how magic it seemed
Oh, please let me sleep, it's Christmas time

Oh...oh, when I, if I was a kid...oh, how magic it seemed
Oh, please let me dream, it's Christmas time

Like an angel, fly over your house
Like an angel, pass out wishes
Like an angel, I will move the arrow
Like an angel, I live alone
I'm not livin' what was promised
I am close but can't enjoy
Oh, I'm not dyin'
Oh, I'm so tortured, 'cause I see all
Tortured, and all I cannot do
Tortured, all I should have done
Tortured, while I occupied a man
I'm not livin' what was promised
I am far from glorified
Oh, I'm not dyin'
Oh, I'm not alone
Mind is not a celestial state with idle helms of praise
Time is short, I have an appointment at noon, at noon in Hell
Across the waste of space and fields of air I glide, alone at night
Oh please, please think of me, 'cause I'm, I'm by your side
I'm by your side, I'm by your side, oh...
I'm...I'm right in front of you...I'm by your side... 

Where, oh where, can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me
She’s gone to heaven, so I’ve got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world

We were out on a date in my daddy’s car
We hadn’t driven very far
There in the road, straight ahead
A car was stalled, the engine was dead

I couldn’t stop, so I swerved to the right
I’ll never forget the sound that night
The screamin tires, the bustin glass
The painful scream that I heard last

Oh where, oh where, can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me
She’s gone to heaven, so I’ve got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world

When I woke up the rain was pourin down
There were people standin all around
Something warm flowing through my eyes
But somehow I found my baby that night

I lifted her head, she looked at me and said
"Hold me darling, just a little while"
I held her close, I kissed her our last kiss
I found the love that I knew I had missed

Well now she’s gone
Even though I hold her tight
I lost my love, my life, that night

Oh where, oh where, can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me
She’s gone to heaven, so I’ve got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world

power high, power low
you can take 'em all to school
you can fly, wilt the stilt had nothing on you
lambchops and afro-do, milwaukee bucks and a barbecue
#33 just like you
sweet lew, how could you?
sweet lew, makin' me blue
a laker trade their bobby-d for a house, a crew by the sea
a little help from 32, showtime, and worthy
those were the days, pre-investment spree
sweet lew, is it true?
sweet lew, how could you?
i grew up trying to copy you, bruce lee, and a kung-fu
acta jazzman, yogi too
little did i know, a loose screw
but you had your own shoe
build him high, build him tall, a taiku with a basketball
tear 'em down, one and all
7'2" is a long way to fall
sweet lew, how's the view?

(Vedder, Gossard, Ament, Abbruzzese, McCready)

Ragh woo eats meat eats meat hahaha look out

Dirty Frank Dahmer he's a gourmet cook, yeah.
I got a recipe for anglo-saxin soup, yeah.
Wanted a pass. So she relaxed. Now the little groupie's getting chopped up in the back.
I got a cupboard full of fleshy fresh ingredients
A very careful at the same time quite expedient.
Eats meat. A release.
Bus driving's harder on your head than on your feet.

Dirty frank. A Dirty frank yeah
A Dirty frank ooh
A Dirty frank yea oh
Keeps it clean. a keeps it copaseptic
A little boys and girls their heads are all collected.
A not crazy. a per se
Just a little strange when he gets hungry.
City state your town he will continue.
A stadiums tiny clubs every venue.
A his bus. a your trust.
There goes another turned into crust.
Dirty frank a Dirty Frank yeah. A Dirty frank. oh a Dirty Frank.
Yeah, oh, watch it! now
Why that dirty Frank was a bad mother... Shut your mouth! Hey man, I'm just talking about dirty Frank.

Oh wa-ha a yea cookoo there fucking crazy these kids are driving me crazy

Oh, middle of the night we're stopped the freeway shoulder.
A frank's shoveling to bury the leftovers.
A they're sunk. He's drunk.
Now he's gonna drive I'm hiding in my bunk. Oh.
The band all knows. We're too afraid to mention.
A Don't want to be part of Frank's luncheon.
A lose weight. A be safe. Where's Mike McCready? My god he's been ate!

Dirty frank. A Dirty Frank, yeah.
A Dirty frank. Oh, a Dirty Frank, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
Dirty frank frank frank frank a Dirty frank yea
Dirty frank oh a dirty frank a yea yea yea

Wa yea a yea yea yea yea oh he's gone fruit loops it's the perfect job

Cook 'em just to see the look on their face. I cook 'em just to see the look on their face. (x10 total)

Mommy mommy I'll just sing mommy no no ahh Why

Why that dirty Frank was a bad mother... Shut your mouth! Hey man, I'm just talking about dirty Frank. Yeah.

Dirty Frank wow a Dirty Frank a dirty frank yeah

Why that dirty Frank was a bad mother... Shut your mouth! Hey man, I'm just talking about dirty Frank. Woo.

A Dirty Frank. Yeah, a dirty frank. (x2)
Dirty frank. (~x8)

Wo Ok I think that's enough

You should be happy with what you got...
You should be hard to be a brother...
You should be happy with what we give you...

Hand over my face. I am related to my enemy.
My house on fire,
And my big brother come put the blame on me.

He's a-pushin'...I'm being pushed from above.
Oh, and a brother, back to back to back,
Better back off of him.

You should not questioh at all his authority...

Use a flag as a bandage.
Stick 'em up, show us your pocket hypocrisy.
In the closet, my pleasures
'Cause my big brother don't want to just let me be.

Oh, and I'm pushin'...oh if I could get above...
Oh, and a brother back to back back,
Keep your back off.
Oh, and I'm pushin'...I'm being pushed from above.
Oh, and a brother, back to back to back,
Better back off of him...

Face down...brother...
Face down... [3X]

In my mind there's a clearing.
Black clouds flow through grey still skies.
And the birds don't even whisper.
I'm flying out...I'm flying...

Back to back back, better back off...
Back to back to back, a better, better, better...
Back to back to back, back to back back...brother...
Face down...brother...
Face down...
Face down...brother...
Face down...almost...fired...
Face down...I got a gun...
Face down...
I got a gun...I got a gun...
Face down...I got a gun...
Face down...

Aah, fuck it, I'm just gonna go home, turn on the fuckin' TV...
Watch the nightly news and drink a beer...

Bee girl, you're gonna die.
You don't wanna be famous, you wanna be shy.
Do your dances alone in your room.
Becoming a star will become your doom.
Bee Girl, be a girl. [2X]

You know time is long, and life is short.
Begin to live while you still can.
Believe in nothing, believe me,
Those who can be trusted can change their mind.
When the anxious is the present, unwrap your gifts, take your time.
Everything you imagine needn't be stuck in your mind.

She said to me, over the phone
She wanted to see other people
I thought, "Well then, look around. They're everywhere"
Said that she was confused...
I thought, "Darling, join the club"
24 years old, Mid-life crisis
Nowadays hits you when you're young
I hung up, She called back, I hung up again
The process had already started
At least it happened quick
I swear, I died inside that night
My friend, he called
I didn't mention a thing
The last thing he said was, "Be sound"
Sound...
I contemplated an awful thing, I hate to admit
I just thought those would be such appropriate last words
But I'm still here
And small
So small.. How could this struggle seem so big?
So big...
While the palms in the breeze still blow green
And the waves in the sea still absolute blue
But the horror
Every single thing I see is a reminder of her
Never thought I'd curse the day I met her
And since she's gone and wouldn't hear
Who would care? What good would that do?
But I'm still here
So I imagine in a month...or 12
I'll be somewhere having a drink
Laughing at a stupid joke
Or just another stupid thing
And I can see myself stopping short
Drifting out of the present
Sucked by the undertow and pulled out deep
And there I am, standing
Wet grass and white headstones all in rows
And in the distance there's one, off on its own
So I stop, kneel
My new home...
And I picture a sober awakening, a re-entry into this little bar scene
Sip my drink til the ice hits my lip
Order another round
And that's it for now
Sorry