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How long have you held me in this water
Much too long since my body is numb
How long have I been and where am I
And why are my hands tied
How long have I been your little altar
Your little toy and sacrifice
How long have you kept me in these waters
In a world where you're god
And we are all your servants
If I had known how to get out of solitude
I would have done it all to help you
If we had known about the pain we caused you
We would have stopped just to save you
How far did he go to get to know her
Much too far and we all must have been blind
It was an ordinary morning
Monday morning just before 9. 00
And you are all my servants
The guilt is yours not mine
If I had known how to get out of solitude
I would have done it all to help you
If we had known about the pain we caused you
We would have stopped just to save you
And you are all my servants
You will all oblige
This will teach the lesson
The guilt is yours not mine
If I had known how to get out of solitude
I would have done it all to help you
And If I had known about the pain we caused you
I would have saved you
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In a time and a place where I had to bite my lip
To not be crying
Through the embers of the 2nd phase I had to
Choose another way of dying
And in dreams they come for you
Have they not come to see you too?
In silence flying through the room
Lonely thoughts try to conquering you
I want to help you but you never ask
And I want you to and I told you forever that
Why won't you tell me why you never laugh?
Cause I've told you forever you have to believe in me
Hand in hand through the worlds I try to conquer
I have fate walking beside me
And through halls of forgotten bliss I have to
Make a choice or die trying
And in dreams they come for you
Have they not come to see you too?
In silence flying through the room
Lonely thoughts try to conquering you
I want to help you but you never ask
And I want you to and I told you forever that
Why won't you tell me why you never laugh?
Cause I've told you forever you have to believe in me
Believe in me...
Why would you ever...
I want to help you but you never ask
And I want you to and I told you forever that
Why won't you tell me why you never laugh?
Cause I'll always hear you
I want to help you but you still never ask
Cause I want you to and I told forever that I
Would always help you to guide you when you're blind
Forever an ever
I want to help you but you never ask
And I want you to and I told you forever that
Why won't you tell me why you nerver laugh?
Cause I've told you forever you have to believe in me
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I have been walking this long dark road
And I have been climbing this tree so old
I have been wanting to let it all fall
It's making me
Turning me...
Inside out
Going outside in
As I lie here
Inside out going outside in
You promised me to leave me be
But I got lost and could not see clearly
Now I'm afraid of whom I used to be
Right now I'm just glad that you found me
Inside out
Going outside in
As I lie here
Inside out going outside in
Can I admit to you that I was wrong?
Will you forgive me for what I have done?
Would you leave me here wounded and bleeding?
Inside out
Going outside in
Inside out going outside in
As I lie here...
Inside out
Going outside in
As I lie here
Inside out going outside in
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This is how we try to keep warm
And trust me you'll need it when it's cold
One more thing just so you don't forget
Don't wake him when he's sleeping
Try and hide before he sees you
You can try but I'm that you won't
Don't you cry so that he hears you
I am sure that you won't
And you'll despise yourself for dreaming
Hate yourself for believing
Lie to yourself in obedience
For how long will it be this dark?
The light's been gone since ever
How are we supposed to carry on?
Are we here forever?
And you'll despise yourself for dreaming
Hate yourself for believing
Lie to yourself in obedience. obedience
And you will cry yourself to sleep
Fight yourself to not give in
Lie to yourself in obedience
Does anybody miss her?
Can anybody hear her?
Does anybody scream her name?
Does anybody miss her
Try and hide before he sees you
You can try but I'm that you won't
Don't you cry so that he hears you
But I am sure that you won't
And you'll despise yourself for dreaming
Hate yourself for believing
Lie to yourself in obedience. Obedience
And you will cry yourself to sleep
Fight yourself to not give in
Lie to yourself in obedience. Obedience...
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I have tried Ihave fought but for nothing
And I have touched Ihave reached just for something
I can't breathe I can't sleep but I'm fighting
Before the curtain falls
Step in and walk along
Breathe in and let it come
Sit down and watch the curtain fall
Step in and walk along
You've got to give into let it show
How to heat the weak to become
And praise the strong
Step in and walk along
Breathe in and let it come
Sit down and watch the curtain fall
You took my trust four granted
You shook my hand and smiled
I walked away believing
In a world that never was
You'll never walk alone
I'll mark your words and follow
You'll never be alone
So step in and walk along
Breathe in and let yourself go
Sit down and watch the curtain fall
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I remember your voice and your dreams
Your smile when you laughed
And your pain when you screamed
I'll follow your footsteps let them be my guide
Can you save me from being myself?
It's hard to be strong when you're stuck in a shell
If you don't desert me I won't let you down
In remembrance
Of all the things you used to do
In remembrance
Of all the faith I had in you
In remembrance
And when I walk I walk for you
In remembrance of you
I remember when we used to run
Against any threat united as one
We faced all our fears
And we chased all the clouds blocking the sun
And through the haze that my sorrow created
I heard your voice and the promise you stated
And I...
Won't let you down
In remembrance
Of all the things you used to do
In remembrance
Of all the faith I had in you
In remembrance
And when I walk I walk for you
In remembrance of you
Cause I never saw you deserted
Or you never spoke so I heard it
Cause I would never let you down
Did you call me and I didn't listen?
Did I force you to make a decision?
Did I?
In remembrance
Of all the days we planned
And all the things we said we'd do
In remembrance
Of all the times we had
And the fate I shared with you
In remembrance
You'll always be my truth
Cause what I know I've learned from you
In remembrance of you
Of all the faith I had in you
Cause when I walk I walk for you
In remembrance of you
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Here we are once again
Time to choose at the crossroads end
Here we are stuck again
Time to speak or to forever be silent
It comes to a point where I can't take another lie
The day has finally come
Where I demand your silence
Comes to a point where I can't accept another lie
The day has finally come where I would die for your silence
At loss for words
And I'm short of breath
And in fear of truth I came to trust in you
What I demand of you is just to speak the truth
You've got your chance right now
Or to forever be...
It comes to a point where I will know you lived a lie
And I'm the first on my knees to accept my naivety
Comes to a point where I can't accept another lie
The day has finally come for you not me
To be
At loss for words
And I'm short of breath
And in fear of truth I came to trust in you
What I demand of you is just to speak the truth
You've got your chance right now
Or to forever be bleeding...
To forever be believing...
To hide from me...
And leave me alone...
Here we are once again
Time to choose at the crossroads end
Here we are stuck again
Time to speak or to forever be silent
At loss for words
And I'm short of breath
And in fear of truth I came to trust in you
What I demand of you is just to speak the truth
You've got your chance right now
Or to forever be...
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We're still in the water
It's getting harder to breathe
I've started counting the seconds
There's been no light here for a week
My only comfort has silenced
I just thought she was asleep
Her breathing stopped forever
And it's leaving me
Thinking I will never leave these waters
But I feel that life is leaving me
Thinking he will never ever free me
I'm stuck forever in a dream...
I'm caught forever in a dream...
How can I save myself from apocalypse?
How can I change his ways into thinking different?
Can I gain his trust and confidence?
I just need a minute of his common sense
If he'd only say my name
Cause to him we're all the same
In this world where he's king and deserving fame
We're his personal belongings
Asimple way to ease the lust
I have heard himself reason
And it sheds my hope to dust
And I should never
Why would I ever?
Let myself he held prisoned forever
They must have wanted to
Or maybe been talked into
Joining darkness forever
If he'd only say my name
Cause to him we're all the same
All the same and deserving fame
We're his personal belongings
A simple way to ease the lust
We're still in the water...
He said forever and screamed never
He promised god to love her now and forever
Time will change her
His laws will break her
Only to make her more pure and better
And now she's crying
No more denying
Asking forgiveness for the time
She's been lying
Nothing can harm us
We're made in heaven
I promised god to love you
...Now and forever...
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He walked her down the street
And stopped where he always left her
He kissed her on the cheek and said
-Honey I'll see you later...
And little did he know
That the words he said would never happen ever
He waved to her and turned
And that was the last time he saw her
I'm sorry for the times screamed
And the times I made you lonely
I'm sorry for the times I made you cry
And the times I didn't hold you
I'm sorry for the doubts I brought to you
I'm sorry for the dark I walk you through
I'm sorry for the times I put you through
Forgive me...
Did not walk far
Before I heard the sounds of sirens
Did I reflect at all when they stopped
And everything turned silent?
Did you scream at all?
I wish I would have been there
Did you scream at all?
I wish I could have been there
I'm sorry for the times screamed
And the times I made you lonely
I'm sorry for the times I made you cry
And the times I didn't hold you
I'd never lie
It's you and I
But I failed to keep my promise
If I could I would do anything to change it
I would spend all my time to make sure you would all be safe
I should have done it all so differently
I should have followed you like you wanted me
If I had known what fate would do to you
I would have prayed to her to take me too
I'm sorry that I didn't walk with you
I'm sorry that I did not listen to you
I should have done it all so differently
But I'm just me...
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Remind me of what you said life had made you do
What did you do to make all you had fall trough
What forces you to make the choices that you do?
Are we to blame for all the failures that are you
Or should we blame you?
Should we blame you?
I should blame you for the falling rain
I should blame you for my constant pain
I should be there to remind you every day
I should
How come we bear the cross that you should?
How come we wear the wounds that you should?
I am confused, why is it me who is bleeding?
We never had a chance to make a choice you had
We were all too young to understand
Not like you
Not like you had?
I should blame you for the falling rain
I should blame you for my constant pain
I should be there to remind you every day
I should
I should walk you trough the halls of my own fate
I should let you taste the tears that fell in hate
I should be there to remind you every day
I should
Remind me of what you said life had made you do
What did you do to make all you had fall trough
What forces you to make the choices that you do?
Are we to blame for all the failures that are you?
Or should we blame you?
I should blame you for the falling rain
I should blame you for my constant pain
I should be there remind you every day
I should
I should walk you trough the halls of my own fate
I should let you taste the tears that fell in hate
I should be there to remind you every day
I should
I should
I should let you taste that fell in hate
I should be there to remind you every day
I should
I should...
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So is this it?
Does time end here?
Is this what I fought for?
And what I've gained
What a fool I've been
To think life had more to offer
Instead I lie here
In remorse and suffer
And I hate you for doing this
And I hate you for saying that
I never did enough to ever please you
Never did enough for it to cease to
Affect me the way it does
Provoke me the way it must
And I'm still thinking
I'm not enough
My war on time
Got worse and faster
The sands fought hard
And every day I lost a battle
And even thought I know I lied
And even though I saw the signs
The same three words each time
I am fine
And I hate you for doing this
And I hate you for saying that
I never did enough to ever please you
Never did enough for it to cease to
Affect me the way it does
Provoke me the way it must
And I'm still thinking
I'm not enough
I'm ashamed of the life I've lived
I'm afraid of what I have been
And it just became
Just became enough...
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