Альбом A.F.I.

no trust
can be given freely , it's a valuable commodity
but obviously this is something you
never learned
faith is something that you put in friends and
had i excess morals to lend
i'd let you borrow them but my trust you haven't earned!

we've got a problem
first of all: there is no we, i'm detached from you completely
i've got a problem: you tell lies to my friends and think it won't get back to me

no bond
could ever seem to make a stable fit in our relationship
but one thing that never comes between us
is honesty
when you've got something to say you always seem to find away
to avoid the truth or instead you avoid me!

we've got a problem: first of all there is no we, i'm detached from you completely
i've got a problem: you tell lies to my friends and think it won't get back to me

STRAIGHT UP
Is how you'll see me stand,
But it is never in your plans,
To be straight forward,
So instead, you use
DECEIT.
Now I would like to take apart,
What you've been breaking from the start.
I'll remain intact,
I won't be broken in defeat.

We've got a problem?
First of all there is no "we",
I'm detached from you completely.
I've got a problem.
You tell lies to my friends
And think it won't get back to me....

NO TRUST!

I sleep until there is no light.
I'm wide awake all through the night.
Dinner may suck but I'll take a bite, I do whatever I can.
My muscles stiffen through the day.
Discomfort never goes away.
I feel like a garbage can

Throw me away, I've got no use.
Throw me away, I'm nothing to lose
Throw me away, I feel like shit.
I am useless.

I know I know nothing at all.
I'd take stand, but I know I'd fall.
I'd run head-down into a wall and watch my blood run faster.
Girls laugh and pass me on the street.
I spook out everyone I meet.
I've got pink toenails on my feet, I'm such a fucking master.
I never seem to feel well.
I always seem to look like hell.
It seems like everyone can tell my mind is going numb.
My mom thinks I wear women's clothes.
I get dogged on at all the shows.
It seems that everybody knows I look like a fucking bum.

If I had my way I'd wish them all away, but I can't find the magic
inside of me. I'll give my best 'cause I can give no more, but
your problems aren't solved so easily.

I'm not someone that you should run to. I've been, often,
as broken as you, more often than you'd like me to.

If I could heal all the pain that you feel,
I'd gladly heal all that ails you inside. Unfortunately I have no
degree and I can not anesthetize.

I'm not someone that you should run to. I've been, often,
as broken as you, more often than you'd like me to.

Whoa
I wish that I could help you.
Whoa
I can't even help myself.
Whoa
It seems you need a saving grace and a savior is
something I'm not.

Whoa
I wish that I could help you.
Whoa
I can't even help myself.
Whoa
It seems you need a saving grace and a savior is
something I'm not.

I'll turn you on and switch you right off.
I'll make sure you like what you see.
Forget all that you once believed.
Now you will believe in me.
Do you believe you make the choice,
decide what you hold most dear?
In all opinions that you voice,
it's my voice that they all hear.

I'll take your ideas and your values,
I'll make you turn them all around.
I'll break your individuality,
I'll take you down.

I'll seal shut your open eyes.
I'll give you a taste on the bland.
Intoxicate you, take me in.
You'll never feel the touch of my hand.

I'll take you ideas and your values,
I'll make you turn them all around.
I'll break your individuality,
I'll take you down.

I'll turn you on and switch you right off.
I'll soothe your troubled mind.
You'll never have to think again,
It's just a matter of lost time.

I'll take you ideas and your values,
I'll make you turn them all around.
I'll break your individuality,
I'll take you down.

What was it I was thinking,
or was I even thinking at all?
When I think of what I thought back then,
then I'm ashamed; and I'm appalled
that I gave up all I ever was so easily.
Living your life is not for me.

I won't be sedated, I won't be sedated!
Give me a little taste and I know I won't want more.
I won't be sedated, stability is overrated.
Give me the disorder I adore.

What was it you were thinking,
or were you even thinking at all?
When I think of what you thought of me,
I take offense; and I'm appalled
that you could discount all I love so easily.
Living our life is not for me.

(x2)
I won't be sedated, I won't be sedated!
Give me a little taste and I know I won't want more.
I won't be sedated, stability is overrated.
Give me the disorder I adore.

I can't be a part,
Be a part,
I can't be a part.
I can't be a part,
Be a part of your modern world.
I've gotta be apart,
Be apart,
Gotta be apart.
I've gotta be apart.
I can't grasp the values that you hold.

Every night I walk the streets, awake while everyone else sleeps.
I'm giving unease to anyone I meet.
My generosity can never run out,
because I give a gift from what's within myself.

No hope at all.
Take nothing from nothing and you'll have nothing left.
I can't recall.
I can't recall a moment in my life when life was at it's best.

Everyone avoids my stare and no one cares to ever dare
to look into the eyes of what they most fear.
And they're taught to fear, to fear no evil.
And they know no fear, they've learned to love themselves.

No hope at all.
Take nothing from nothing and you'll have nothing left.
I can't recall.
I can't recall a moment in my life when life was at it's best.

Forever unlucky, 'cause I'll own tomorrow.
Forever unwanted, outcast today.
I'm not mislead, I've got no one to follow.
Everywhere to go, no place to stay.

No hope at all.
Take nothing from nothing and you'll have nothing left.
I can't recall.
I can't recall a moment in my life when life was at it's best.

Dont want to think about,
but i see it everyday.
Corrupted innocence just doesn't seem to fade away
Spoiled so young,
you know its bound to last,
but when you're living in the city,
you've gotta grow up fast

Chorus:
And it makes me sick,
God it makes me sick,
And it makes me sick,
God it makes me sick,

Don't want to think about it,
but i see it everyday.
If you want to buy affluence,
you're soul you'll have to pay.
Wasting away the prime of your life,
but it's been done that way for years,
so you know it must be all right,

And it makes me sick,
God it makes me sick,
And it makes me sick,
God it makes me sick,

its just not right

Dont wanna think about it,
but i see it everyday,
with every sip and every shot,
mind and bodies fade away.
Friends are all gone,
and memories don't last,
but when you've fallen off the wagon,
you seem to fall so damn fast,

Just like cellophane
you try to cling so tight to me
but your attempt's in vain
You've less sincerity than the plastic
Paper in rain
The print appears so bright to me
The words remain
I hold it to the light I see right through

So eager to say, "hello", but you don't know me
You just know what you see
Pay the price to see the show but you don't own me
Before you knew would you have felt the same?

Just when I'm inspired
you drain the drive right outta me
and even when I'm tired you push me to perform for you amusement
Just like raging fire, you burn what's left inside of me
and to fulfill your desire, I'd give you light till I burned out

So eager to say, "hello", but you don't know me
You just know what you see
Pay the price to see the show but you don't own me
Before you knew would you have felt the same?

Just when you start to smile
I look into your eyes and see
your veiled denial to express any real emotion
Just wait around a while
you'll lose what you once had for me
I'll be out of style I'll be discarded with the warmth you once feigned

So eager to say, "hello", but you don't know me
You just know what you see
Pay the price to see the show but you don't own me
Before you knew would you have felt the same?

I'm not angry, I'm just amused at
Your quest for attention through your
Self-abuse.
The only response that you get
For your pleas is sorely less
Than sympathy.

What reason is there to be alive?
When the word is against you
How can you survive?
All your friends are apathetic at best,
And your entire life is a total mess.
GIVE IT A FUCKING REST.

You can't, you can't feel me, I'm scared so deep.
No one could ever need me.
Could you please leave me alone?

I'm sorry to hear that your world's sinking fast
And you've lost your stable ground
And I'm sorry to add to your disappointment,
But I won't be brought down.

I'm not angry, I'm just amused at all the dramatics
You love to use, but one thing I know is that
You're not happy unless you're unhappy.
You're not content until you're brought down,
And you're always so alone because you
Can't be found.

Your soul is black and you're filled with hate.
How much more could you possibly take?
GIVE ME A FUCKING BREAK.

There's no hope of helping us;
we've only just begun.
We’re youth eternal,
nothing more to become.
A thousand lights are burning from both ends.

We’re proud of reputations we all own.
Together forever.
Rejected but never alone.
Together forever.
I’d purify the world with one primal scream,
but no one would listen.
Keep dark secrets to myself,
because no one else will talk to me.

It’s hard for me to comprehend;
they couldn't understand all the thoughts going through our heads.
With a smile they tore us up,
now look what we've become.
Finally we are numb.

We’re proud of reputations we all own.
Together forever.
Rejected but never alone.
Together forever.
I’d purify the world with one primal scream,
but no one would listen.
Keep dark secrets to myself,
because no one else will talk to me.

I’d purify the world with one primal scream,
but no one would listen.
Keep dark secrets to myself,
because no one else will talk to me.

No need to. No need to feel.
I’ve got a nothingness and that's all that's real.
No need to cut the numbness inside.
No need to. No need to hear.
What you've got to say means nothing at all.
I’ve got no distance left to fall.

I’d purify the world with one primal scream,
but no one would listen.
Keep dark secrets to myself,
because no one else will talk to me.

I'm here today, just like every yesterday.
Heavy heat, and sheets stick to my skin.
Can't get away from nothingness.
I try to get up,
but I have to give in to the force that is keeping me down.
I overcome gravity, I look outside.
A cat cries out, trapped upon a window sill,
but is crying's drowned out by my screaming inside.

What will it take?
I wonder what it's like exposed outside, would I be safe?
When will it break?
Try to look out, I see reflection I just want to break.

Sirens moan.
They're forever crying...someone's probably dying.
The sound sticks inside my head.
Talk to myself, I'm company, but who is to say if nothing is said?
Two windows stare back at me.
Three stories high and nothing is new.
I may sit, but someday I'll stand.
I'll muster up the will and fire myself through.

What will it take?
I wonder what it's like exposed outside, would I be safe?
When will it break?
Try to look out, I see reflection I just want to break.

You've seen it all a thousand times, you've heard it all before.
You've danced the steps, you wrote the rhymes.
So passé, too many times, but you're hollow at the core.
Two generations past you by.
You think there's nothing left.
But look around and you will see what our world has grown to be.
We are the now, not the past.

Can't you even try to see the strength with which we've built ourselves to be?
I know that you will never be able to destroy what it's meant to me.

You've never seen the likes of us.
We are your novelty.
A brand new trend with mass appeal, don't like the truth, don't like what's real.
You're jumping into something you'll never understand.
You think that it's a passing phase.
It's our entire life.
You revel in rebellious ways, rebellion that the media made.
When you change your channel, we'll smash your T.V.

Can't you even try to see the strength with which we've built ourselves to be?
I know that you will never be able to destroy what it's meant to me.
Can't you even try to see the strength with which we've built ourselves to be?
I know that you will never be able to destroy what it's meant to me!

fuck. you. very much
You say you want to be friends, start over, try again?
Well, things will never be the way they were back then.
Things were never how you wanted, I couldn't think of you that way.
Now, if you take one step closer I will take two steps away.

Maybe you need affection,
I'd like to help you but I can't stand when you're around:
fuck you very much.
Maybe you need to talk, but you betrayed my trust.
Friends was not good enough? Fuck You Very Much.

You can always claim you're straightedge, go ahead and dye your hair.
You won't get more attention from me, 'cause I will never fucking care.
I try to remain secret, shooting away and hiding out,
but you always track me down. Open your eyes and figure it out!

Maybe you need affection,
I'd like to help you but I can't stand when you're around:
fuck you very much.
Maybe you need to talk, but you betrayed my trust.
Friends was not good enough? Fuck You Very Much.

I'm not trying again.
I'm sick of seeing you.
Don't wanna be your friend.
I wish you'd go away.

fuck you very much.
Maybe you need to talk, but you betrayed my trust.

Maybe you need affection,
I'd like to help you but I can't stand when you're around:
fuck you very much.
Maybe you need to talk, but you betrayed my trust.
Friends was not good enough? Fuck You Very Much.

You've got something to say,
or so you say to me,
then you receive a blank stare.
You've got something to say of importance and gosh,
that's really good to hear.

I'm proud of you, so proud of you,
I'm proud of you, I'm very proud of you.

You've got something S.P. - some to show to me.
Well, I have seen it before.
I can't compete, I can't impress you.
I guess I'll show you the door.

I'm proud of you, so proud of you,
I'm proud of you, I'm very proud of you.

When it comes the time that you have recognized your line
and you realize the path that you will travel through your life,
be sure that what you want is exactly what you're trying to get,
or you'll be speeding toward a cliff without realizing that...

Before you know, the haze makes you slow ignore your future,
forget your past - before you know, cars start to crash.

There are so many choices, the opportunities abound.
Just to be sure to keep things straight and be sure to stand your ground.
Let nothing shade your vision, even fight to keep it clear.
Let no one change what's right for you, for when you start to veer

Before you know, the haze makes you slow ignore your future,
forget your past - before you know, cars start to crash.
Before you know, the haze makes you slow ignore your future,
forget your past - before you know, cars start to crash.
Before you know, the haze makes you slow ignore your future,
forget your past - before you know, cars start to crash.

hangin' out and lingerin' around,
'cause you know where i'll be found
and i don't know how you do it.
this obsession i must admit has shaken me up a bit.
my solidarity now only comes in pairs.

i'd like to see you
before you see me.
i'd like to see you.
i'd like to see you leave.

showered by torrential praise,
why it is i can't explain.
attempts to leave yield no avail.
for me i don't know what's in store.
all i want is nothing more.
i don't deserve what i get,
have nothing to return.

i'd like to see you
before you see me.
i'd like to see you.
i'd like to see you leave.

Don't care to hear what you heard.
I won't believe a single word.
Don't care to hear what you say.
I won't believe it anyway.
You relay fiction, facts you avoid.
You're just like a fucking tabloid,
you can never seem to get your information straight.

Tell me something I don't know.
Your information's fucking faux.
Don't you have somewhere to go?
Your mouth is quick, your mind is slow.

Don't want to know what you know.
I just want you to fucking go.
Don't want to know what you believe.
I just wish that you would leave.
You try to cajz everyday, I wish that you would get away.
You can never seem to get your information straight.

Tell me something I don't know.
Your information's fucking faux.
Don't you have somewhere to go?
Your mouth is quick, your mind is slow.

When you try to hang around, I'd really like to push you down.
When you try to understand, I don't really think that you can.
You relay fiction, facts you avoid.
You're just like a fucking tabloid,
you can never seem to get your information straight.

Tell me something I don't know.
Your information's fucking faux.
Don't you have somewhere to go?
Your mouth is quick, your mind is slow.

You keep on sayin' that you want to know me
but you never show me your true self.
How can you ever expect someone else to know you
when all you're going to do is just pretend that you're someone else?
You keep on sayin' that you want to show me
that you're really different, but your just the same.
If you're really mindless then there is no way that I can win,
maybe you're just one of them, or maybe it's just a game.
You lie to yourself (x3)
and remain alone.
You lie to yourself (x3)
and remain alone. (x3)
I'm not exactly sure of your motivation.
I'm not exactly sure what you're tryin' to do.
All I'm really sure is that you're not too impressive
and you're wearin' a mask that I can't see through.
Maybe you're not looking for acceptance,
maybe you're striving for something more.
If it's status that you lust then why try to be one of us?
You're someone we'll never trust 'cause we know the score.
You lie to yourself (x3)
and remain alone.
You lie to yourself (x3)
and remain alone. (x3) (You remain alone!!)
Ohhhhhhhhhhhh
I can't see through (x4)

I will never want to date you
while I can learn to hate you.
If you somehow learn to love me,
well, that's just my luck.
I would never ever care if you only wanted my friendship,
but somehow you're disappointed
that I'm not a slut.

I don't want to fuck you
I don't wanna fuck you
I don't want to fuck you
so fuck you!

In my mind there is no doubt
that you've been in and out of many
different backseats, many times before.
I can always see your defeat
when I won't leave the front seat.
Now it seems your disappointed that I'm not a whore

I don't want to fuck you
I don't wanna fuck you
I don't want to fuck you
so fuck you!

Yeah i can see it coming.
I’ve seen it all before.
I’ve seen it once or twice and now i hear it call to board.
This train is moving fast but how long is it gonna last.
I guess that we'll find out as well go in through the out door.

Don’t… Don’t ever let go.
Don’t… Don’t ever let go.

Is this the start?
Is this the end?
New faces ask,
"what's happening?"
i bite my tongue and hold my breath and tell them,
"the same old thing."
i don't know what's going, on but i don't wanna do it wrong.
Don’t wanna contradict myself with all the words i sing.

Don’t… Don’t ever let go.
Don’t… Don’t ever let go.
Don’t… Don’t ever let go.
Don’t… Don’t ever let go.
Don’t ever let go.
Don’t ever let go.

You don't know who I am so,
you can not get close to me and I don't know who you are,
so just leave me alone.
I know you can't believe the anxiety you're causing me
and I know you can't believe your fake compassion I don't need.

Get away from me,
You're standing too close.
Keep your hands off of me.
Keep away from me,
Just leave me alone, who said you could touch me anyway?

Don't try to rub my shoulders and don't try to hold my hand.
Don't try to give me a fucking hug.
You crawl on me as if I were your very best of friends.
I don't even know your name.

Get away from me
You're standing too close.
Keep your hands off of me.
Keep away from me
Just leave me alone, who said you could touch me anyway?

2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8. ah!

Bowling is my life and it has always been my dream
to be a member of the local bowling team, although; but I'm not very good.
The guys won't accept me,
I guess I try the girls team and lose a part of my anatomy

Then balls will roll.
I think I want to be...
Balls will roll, I think it's time, it's time for me to be a girl.

It's a very big decision, it's going to change my life.
I'll have to make all new friends, I 'm gonna lose my wife.
But that's okay with me.
There's something in my soul.
It doesn't matter who's the better man, it the one who gets to bowl.

Then balls will roll.
I think I want to be...
Balls will roll, I think it's time, it's time for me to be a girl.

I 've made my decision , I'm gonna make the change.
There will be rolling balls, I'm gonna play my game.
It's gonna be so great.
It's gonna be the best, besides, I've always told myself I look good in a dress.
I'm gonna cut'em off, I'm gonna cut'em off, I'm gonna cut'em off.
I'll never have to cough.
No don’t stop keep going.
Now I've made my change and I've fulfilled my dream.
I'm now a member of the women's bowling team.
I hope I throw a strike, 'cause I'll never score again.
My first game is tomorrow, I will go to play and then...

Then balls will roll.
I think I want to be...
Balls will roll, I think it's time, it's time for me to be… a girl…

You think you've got the looks
You think you've got the fashion
You thought you'd have me wanting more
But don't like my reaction.
You think you're really something
You're nothing to me now
You thought you'd keep me coming without ever thinking how

I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you

You think you're really special
You think I think you're best
You think you're really something?
You're no better than the rest
You've got everything you wanted
Don't let yourself be fooled
You thought that you could play the game
But I just changed the rules

I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you

You I hate you
You I hate you

You think you've got the looks
You think you've got the fashion
You thought you'd have me wanting more
But don't like my reaction.
You think you're really something
You're nothing to me now
You thought you'd keep me coming without ever thinking how

I hate you
I hate you
I hate you
I hate you